I’m exhausted. What a week last week was. After I got all of the Will details fleshed out for the 27th – and energy shift occurred. This happens when there has been a change and my physical body tries to adapt to the shift in my energy body’s higher frequency. So for over a week – sleep has been more pathetic than usual, headaches, body tremors, brain on hold — the fun stuff. Luckily when I do readings it’s something that just flows through me and doesn’t really require any brain work. So to help with this shift I have stayed away from all extra spiritual work – no mediations, no on purpose dream visits, no anything. This is why I haven’t written all last week – when I stay away from things – I stay away.
I don’t feel too bad today which is why I thought it was fine to write. I have been doing a lot of shifting and putting things behind me over the last week. I resigned from Whispers Media. No – nothing happened, it was just time to move forward. I have nothing but love for that company. So no more sex toy testing for me – damnit:) But I do have over 60 toys as it is and frankly — do I really need any more? Maybe a good glass dildo or two — but that’s it. I’m also going to be done with the L Word and I’m not going to do the sex talk show. Maybe some day I’ll do the talk show – just not right now. I’ve decided to focus all of my extra time and energy to my screenwriting. I’m good at it. And with my manager’s talent and fine-tuning ability — there’s no reason why I can’t make it — or at least make it to a point where something else opens up. No worries – I am still writing the OBE sex blog and book.
My guides told me to go out and by yellow for Will. I have to wear a yellow shirt when I talk to him. I have no idea why — but they comment and I just follow their lead. 3 days till I see him. He’s been in my mind a lot — not intrusive like – but it’s almost as if he’s here to see what I’m doing and how I’m doing. Looking forward to Wed and I find myself nervous. Not nervous to see him – that’ll be a piece of cake. It’s NYC with my 7 year old – that’s what makes me nervous. I have no idea what I’m doing, yet I have to act like I do. I have no idea how to hail a cab and the subway? I get hives just thinking about it. We’ll be okay – it’s just the big city and I’m a country girl:)
I won’t be doing any readings this week – I’m scheduling for the next week and beyond. And it’s filling up rather fast.
Watching the Oscars. I’m such a geek I never miss it. I’ve been watching since I was 10 years old. It’s cool as right now they are showing the Kodak theater – and I’ve been in there. My sister and I went in once for a tour. Tommy Lee Jones and Jack Nicolson sitting by one another — that would be a trip to be in that area and just listen to those two. I – of course – am going to cry when they show the stars that have passed this last year. I always do. This is the 80th awards and I remember having a dream once where this award show was significant for me. Not sure why. I guess maybe I’ll find out afterwards.
My dreams have been jamming lately — well, should I say — still. They are just so darn busy. Will and Bill are always in them — but I can’t remember exactly what happens, I just know that they are there.
BTW…Ted finally did marry the vamp last week. Good luck to them both — they are sure going to need it. I give it 3 years tops.
Back to Will — as he’s obviously on my mind. When we’re telepathically connected – I can sense fear, excitement, uneasiness, love, impatience and longing. I think that we are bouncing it off of each other. I can tell that he is not 100% about having his life tipped upside down – even if it is for a good reason. Change is scary no matter if it’s wanted or not. Add to this the unknown — and it can make the most optimistic person a pessimist. This is where I lie – I sway between optimism and pessimism. I think that I put the pessimism in my thoughts so that if things do not go as I would like – then it won’t be such a let down. Of course I am honestly not expecting much at all – more like this is a seed expedition. Planting a seed of curiosity. Will’s a thinker – once that seed is planted, he’ll work on it till he gets it worked out. A lot like Bill — but Will doesn’t overthink. We’ll see what happens. But one thing is for sure – the following Monday will usher in a new time for me, regardless if NYC goes well or not. I’m ready for something new in my life. I’m ready for something good.
I will not have my computer in NYC – but I will have the Crackberry (AKA Blackberry) with me in case there is a need and/or time to shoot off a quick post.
Don’t forget that Fri – Sun I’ll be in Lansing MI for Maria Shaw’s Cosmic Connection Covention. Stop out and say “Hi”.
Off to keep on watching the Oscars and working on “The Black Triangle”.