The Map, The Goblin and Ben!

The Map, The Goblin and Ben!

How can it be Monday already? The weekend goes way too fast. Had fun on Friday for game night. My son played the Wii all night and had one heck of a sore arm all weekend:) So with his right arm hurting and my left shoulder/hand hurting from ice removal – we are quite the pair!

The Movement call was yesterday. If you weren’t able to be on the call:

Playback Number: (605) 475-4849
Access Code: 212027#  – wait a sec – then hit the # sign again

You can listen to it until our next call in March. 

As most of you know I’ve been reading “The Map”. I admit – I haven’t gotten much further. But in Colette’s Feb newsletter (, she includes a good exercise from the book:

The Map: Who Is Guiding You n Your Path?

Who is guiding you on your path? Is it the voice of wisdom or the chatter of trickery?

Over the last few blogs, I’ve shared some of the insight from my new bestselling book, The Map: Finding the Magic and Meaning in the Story of Your Life. We’ve talked about the power of knowing Where and When you are on your path. Now, it’s time to look at Who you’re listening to. If you want to harness your power to direct your life, you must learn to sort out what the voices within you are, their messages, and the quality of their advice. You must tame your Goblins and quiet your Chatterbox so you can then tune into the wisdom of your magical allies. Today, we’re going to do just this! Are you ready?!

  • Ever feel like you keep encountering the same old frustrating patterns or issues, even though you keep working on yourself?
  • Do you sometimes sabotage yourself, expect things to fall apart, or act out of compulsivity?
  • Have you struggled with low self-worth and a tendency to beat yourself up?
  • Do you ever judge others harshly?
  • Do you keep running into the same difficult people?

I’d like to introduce you to your Goblin—the trickster behind the above experiences!

Many years ago, I came up with the character of the Goblin to represent the wounded ego we all have. He is the disowned part of yourself that’s hiding and making mischief in the darkest shadows of your Map. The Goblin is your primary source of fear and all its subsequent by-products, such as anger, jealousy, procrastination, lust, defensiveness, and greed. He is the voice of separation and inflames your negative emotions and feelings of unworthiness. Because he can only identify with trauma, the Goblin can’t recognize your higher self, which isn’t wounded and has different priorities than your wounded ego. When untamed, these tricksters try to protect you with promises of love, security, and power if only you listen to their messages of fear, unworthiness, and abandonment. If you follow their lead, they whisk you away to emotionally challenging territories. They grab the wheel while you end up taking a back seat to your life.

It can be helpful to think of the Goblin as a type of gnome gone wrong. Yes, those garden statues of gnomes actually have a history dating back to the 16th century. Back then, gnomes were thought of as mythic creatures representing the earth element whose job was to protect treasures underground. They were meant to watch over the energies of potential and guard the seeds of possibility, both within the world and within oneself. The Goblin is the deformed gnome which has forgotten its purpose; instead of protecting the unformed—the seeds—it protects the deformed and makes trouble!

Every Goblin has a birthday. He sprang to life from your pain the day you were wounded. As a way to protect his existence, he reminds you over and over of what you lost in his birth through negative self-talk or an expectation that the original wound will always be who you are now and forever. This may have been your loss of innocence, trust, self-worth, and so on which he continues by reminding you that it’s not safe to trust, expect the worst, you’ll never be good enough, etc. He also may have been born out of your ancestry, handed down from your parents. The good news is that once you name the Goblin, you can heal and move forward on your path.

Another character who can prevent you from moving forward on your path is the Chatterbox. Unlike the Goblin, the Chatterbox won’t take you to a place of pain, but he can be just as distracting. He keeps your mind busy with his motor-mouth, diverting you from attending to what’s really important to you. The Chatterbox is the stream of random thoughts that have little importance. You might be trying to work, while the Chatterbox goes something like this. “Oh, I just got a new email—wonder who it’s from. Hmm…I wonder what I should have for dinner. Maybe salad or take out. Oh, look, there’s a picture of a palm tree. I really need to go on a vacation…” And on and on the Chatterbox goes until before you know it, an hour has passed.

The best way to quiet the Chatterbox is through a meditation practice. While “formal” meditation and stillness are fantastic for quieting the Chatterbox, you can also do yoga, walking or some other activity as a way to slow your mind so you can become an observer of your thoughts.
I share much more on the Goblin and the Chatterbox in The Map! There are so many facets to talk about with each voice—it’s one of my favorite chapters of the book, so I hope you check it out. Now, let’s get to today’s exercise.


As I mentioned, when you name your Goblin, you reclaim that piece of you he took. If you don’t name it, you belong to it. So, today, you’re going to discover your Goblin’s birthday!

In your journal, write an account of a painful incident in your past as the story of your Goblin’s birth. If you’re tempted to skip this exercise, thinking that there’s nothing more to learn, remember that’s your Goblin trying to trick you!

Note the Goblin that was born that day. What’s he like? How does he look and talk?

Look into his eyes and observe how you feel. Then ask, what is he telling you about himself?

If he was born from a wound from your past, can you allow yourself to see him as a reminder of that wound, and active to protect that wound, so you always remember it?

Now can you feel compassion for him?

What would it be like to care for and understand him, knowing that this would allow you to be empowered? (Remember the Goblin is essentially a denied aspect of yourself represented by this metaphor—the parts of you that you deny that are expressed through fear, rage, jealousy, etc.).

I am bombarded nightly from dream visits. There are so many people visiting me/me visiting them, that it is almost impossible to keep track of them all. That is unless the same energy/soul/person makes frequent visits. That’s how I realized all of the guys thus far: Bill, Ted, Will, Vincent, Rick, Todd, Michael, George, Thomas and now Ben. With the help of seeing these guys in this reality as well. If they are rummaging around my dream memories and then I see them in our physical reality – it jars the dream memories loose.

So now there’s Ben. He reminds me of a sarcastic cowboy. I know – what a combo. He’s handsome, sarcastic, talented, loyal, creative and intelligent. To make him even more endearing, he will step up and help a friend – any time, any where. And he’s fiercely loyal to his family. I wonder if he has a brother at
home just like him – lol. I first saw Ben in this life about a year ago. My first reaction was that he irritated me – but not in an annoying – get the hell away from me fashion. It’s hard to describe. Kind of like a train wreck you can’t look away from. I saw him, liked what I saw and wanted to look more – but another part of me was screaming – turn away. I have no idea what our connection was/is and if there is supposed to be any other connection (other than astral/dream that is) in this life. But from what I remember of our dream visits – he is a blast to be around. We sit around like really old friends talking, laughing, discussing things. He loves to hold my hand – put his arm around me. We’ve had a talk about our pull to one another and how neither one of us know why or what to make of it. I haven’t been able to figure out why he annoyed me on first look — when he’s anything but annoying. Little by little I’m sure this will unfold.

Last year my friend Teri introduced me to a spiritual empath named Monte: I love this guy. He’s spot on, genuine and tells you like he sees. I wanted to get his opinion about what Gab said in regards to Todd and Rick. This is what he said:

It’s because a lot of things have to fall into place to make the connection between you and the guys, some of it on their part and some on yours…She may also be looking at a short term time-frame too where I’m looking at probability, possibility, and affirmative intent on your part to draw that event into your life….In short, I believe as you do have the capability to create that meeting with either/both guys if you want that to happen…

So – I know that I have manifestation capabilities. My thoughts in regards to Rick and Todd are now chosen with the utmost care. They were before too – but now I’m consciously paying attention. Any type of doubt sneaks in (thus far only once) and it’s gets the drop kick. You give me a glimmer of possibility – and I’ll either embrace it and turn it into reality or ignore it and make it go away.

Better get a move on and do the podcast:)

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie 🙂

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