It was incredible – absolutely the best dream visit that I can remember to date – I can only pray that Bill remembers too.
As you know, my deceased friend Dave is always around me. At night I ask him to take me places as I fall asleep and after ribbing me on where I want to go he takes me. Last night I asked to visit Bill. I asked God for me and Bill to remember our interactions as I felt it was important for me to do so.
I’m in a house and I find Bill’s bedroom. I open it carefully and no one is there. I lay down on his bed and fall asleep. I hear him come in, I don’t move. I can feel him staring down at me. He stands there and I can feel his eyes study every part of my clothed body (I’m lying on top of his covers, on my side, in the fetal position). Then ever so carefully he leans down and kisses my cheek. But he doesn’t pull back, he hovers taking in the scent of my hair, the softness of my skin. I stir like I was sleeping and waking up – still he doesn’t move. I turn towards him and open my eyes. He doesn’t say a thing — instead he gives me a woowie of a kiss!
I can remember running around with him, as a couple, having fun and being very close – holding hands, arms around one another, kissing a lot. He tells me – I’m sorry that it took me so long. I reply – all that matters is that you are here.
We’re standing and I’m hugging him saying over and over — I love you, I love you, I love you Bill. I tell him too that it is very important the remembers that. He cups my face in his hands and says, I love you too Allie, never forget that.
Then I woke up.
I tried to go right back to the dream visit – but he must have awoken because he wasn’t there any longer (he’s 5 hours ahead of me in London). I can feel his astral presence here – next to me – it is incredible. It is like he is fused to me, it is a feeling that I have never had before and it is invigorating! I cannot WAIT to go back to sleep tonight.
This was the 1st time I can remember he and I having any sort of physical intimacy, besides a fleeting kiss. The walls were down, no guarded words. There was a closeness and a bonding — I know of no other way to describe it. The emotions were so intense – so vivid and raw.
Right now it feels like every nerve ending I have is on top of my skin. It’s such an alive feeling, as if one is on top of the world and there is nothing that can stand in the way.
What a Monday morning start!