I think that I will do Vincent Rambling part two this evening. Or tomorrow. My son will be with his dad this weekend – allowing me to get close to finishing BT – if not finish it. Rambling about Vincent will give me a good break from the turmoil of the holocaust. Plus – I have some major “get ready for winter” yard work to do. I’m amazed how fast it got cold here – brrrr – it’s almost like we don’t have a fall any longer. Spring is too short as well. That’s the one thing I’ll miss when I live in CA is fall time. I think that I either have to visit OH in Oct or go to NYC. Maybe I can combine them:)

In preparing to move to CA – my son and I have already been looking at houses. Granted -it is a bit premature. But I figure by the start of 2009 I’m moving so the more I at least window shop online – the more I will know what we both like when it is time to actually move. So far we have determined that we have to have a pool or be in walking distance of the beach. I also need an area for the dogs to do their business. At least 3 bedrooms or 2 bedrooms and a den. I also prefer older houses with character or new houses that are green for the environment. If I could get an old house and convert it to green- that would be great.

Did I tell you that I’m going to write a horror flick? After BT is done – I’m writing a good ole scary horror story. It’s based on the Bloody Mary legends. Thus far I’ve spooked myself several times as I mull it over at night. Freaking myself out really – especially in the shower as the scene from “Psycho” keeps entering my mind. I keep making a mental note to myself to only think about the movie during the daylight. And when I write it – that too will only be written in the day time or I won’t sleep. I’m one of those people who after watching a scary movie can’t sleep for days – it’s pathetic – yet true.

Vincent – as usual – came to visit me last night during dream time. I really look forward to these nightly visits – I hope they keep coming. In this dream we were at some event for me – some TV thing – I think that it was the premiere of DREAMERS. We had to stop so that photographers could take our picture – the flashes were blinding. There was a lot of commotion going on and it was very confusing to me. He kept a steady hand in the middle of my back and guided me to every stop I had to make. If I was nervous – he’d wrap his arm around my waist and pull me close to keep me calm. He’d whisper in my ear to breathe or to tell me I was doing great. There was a lot of noise, people, flashes – it was nerve wracking really. But to the outside – I looked and acted great – all with the help of my steady.

Yesterday I had the oddest vision – odd because this is something that I wouldn’t of dreamt up to even day dream about. I’m in LA with my manager and we’re at some restaurant. I have to go to the bathroom. As I’m walking toward the potty – someone stops me and asks me a question (I think it was about if I was Allie from GA) – any ways – after I get done with that person I turn around and I see two men staring at me: Steven Spielberg and George Lucas. George motions for me to come over – I look around to see if he means me (they get a kick out of it ) and when I realize it was me – I walk over thinking to myself what in the hell could those two want?

I introduce myself – they ask me to sit down. Steven then asks if I’m an actress. I tell him I was married twice – that took an amount of acting skill. They laughed. I then said no – not really – a few local commercials about 20 years ago and a stage play or two – but that’s it. Seems that they were looking for a younger Kathy Bates and I fit that mold – I had that “look” they were looking for (since I admire the actress, I was flattered with the compliment). George explained the supporting role and the movie — which would also have Harrison Ford (no – not an Indy flick). I told them no – I’m behind the camera – and not with him (in any scene) I would be too nervous. They talk me into showing up anyways after they asked me what I was working on – told them — and they suggested that they could help me out to return the favor.

So being scared to death – I went to the place to do a test read. Who do they have me test read with – but Harrison. I thought I was going into cardiac arrest. But I put on a smiley face – and away I went. They had us do a scene that I ad lib most of the way through and Harrison followed my lead. They then had me do another scene (which I found out later they were having trouble working through as something wasn’t right). We ad lib again – and the guys smiled. Asked me to wait out in the hall for a second. And that’s really all it was – was a second – my manager was there waiting for me. They came out and said the parts mine if I want it. I was speechless – me in a movie with Harry. I nodded my manager told me to close my mouth – lol – and it was over.

So I sat there for a spell trying to figure out why in the world I was shown that. I guess I’ll find out eventually – but it hit me out of left field. Kinda like Vincent & Will did when I discovered them.

Yesterday I stumbled across “Gotta Be Somebody” by Nickelback. I’ve been playing it non stop since. I don’t know if it’s a message for me – maybe for Vincent – could be for the two of us. I wonder if he’s listening to it to? I looked up the lyrics:

This time, I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life, the one we all dream of
But dreams just aren’t enough
So I’ll be waiting for the real thing, I’ll know it by the feeling
The moment when we’re meeting, will play out like a scene
Straight off the silver screen
So I’ll be holding my own breath, right up ’til the end
Until that moment when, I find the one that I’ll spend forever with

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There’s gotta be somebody for me like that
Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they’re not alone
There’s somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There’s gotta be somebody for me out there

Tonight, out on the street, out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right, it’s just like deja vu
Me standing here with you
So I’ll be holding my own breath, could this be the end
Is it that moment when, I find the one that I’ll spend forever with

Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There’s gotta be somebody for me like that
Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they’re not alone
There’s somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There’s gotta be somebody for me out there

You can’t give up, when your looking for a diamond in the rough
When it shows up, make sure you’re holding on
Cause it could be the one, the one you’re waiting on
Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares
Someone to love with my life in their hands
There’s gotta be somebody for me, oh

Nobody wants to do it all on their own
And everyone wants to know they’re not alone
There’s somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There’s gotta be somebody for me out there
Nobody wants to be the last one there
Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares
There’s somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There’s gotta be somebody for me out there

Okay – back to work I go….have a great day!

Crystal Sunshine!
Allie:)

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