I know – what a title — fuck buddies. But read on and you’ll understand why I labeled this post that way…
Last night during a dream visit, I was lying on my left side, in bed, fully clothed. On his right side, facing me, was a man – he too was fully clothed. At this point I had no idea who this man was. I was asleep in this dream (as was he), and when I was kinda waking up I felt his hand near my left breast. The back of his hand on on the bed while a couple of his fingers wee just barely touching me. Keeping my eyes open just a slit -and looking at the bed, I took his hand an repositioned it closer to my breast – so that more of his hand was touching me. Closed my eyes again. This woke him up to a point. It startled him (I felt) where his hand was – but he didn’t move it away. Instead once he got his bearings about him, he caressed my breast very gently.
That’s when I opened my eyes and saw him looking at me. This is when I realized that it was Elliot – a man who brought me to another for help, Dan, last week. He just smiled at me, and I smiled back. He said – are you surprised? I replied – that’s an understatement.
The next thing I know is that we’re both naked and he’s on top of me. He said – this is fucking only – nothing more. I said – okay, so you want to be fuck buddies, I can live with that. But otherwise you don’t bother me and I won’t bother you – deal? He smiled – deal.
I commented — it’s been so long since I’ve had sex – is it like riding a bike? Can you ever forget how? He replied – if that’s the case, we’re both in trouble.
He kissed the left side of my neck – twice. Each kiss felt like it was a hot poker going through my skin – but it didn’t hurt (like a real hot poker would), it had quite the opposite effect. His tongue played with my nipple for what was probably only several seconds – but it felt much longer than that as with every touch it was a ripple of fire that shot through my body!
I flipped him onto his back – for some reason he found that to be really funny. We were laughing our butts off — when I woke up. Damn!
What I find increasingly interesting (more than his request to be a fuck buddy) is that I always (lately) have my wall of protection around me when it comes to OBE sex – so that only my 4 soul cluster mates can get in. So if that is the case – how did Elliot make it through? Could it me on some subconscious level I felt it was okay to let him near me? Or could it be that he’s in my soul circle and my soul knew that he wouldn’t harm me?
Questions – questions — it seems like with every experience that there are more questions than possible answers!
Crystal Sunshine!
Allie 🙂
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