When I get upset, I shut down – emotionally, spiritual and physically. It’s hard for anyone to break through to me when I am that closed off. But Will — he never gives up. All day yesterday as I was crying over Girlfriend Kitty – he kept saying — let me in, let me in, I can help you. I could feel the warmth of his love and light pushing to get through. He really pushed too — there was not one moment where he backed off. I finally allowed him in around 10:30 pm last night. Every time a GFK image came into my mind or I could hear her getting hit by the car – or feel her overwhelming fear – he was there to push it aside and bring himself into focus. He knows as well as I that anytime he’s here – I feel loved and very calm. This kept going on until after midnight when I finally went to sleep. I did try to go to sleep earlier – but then I remembered “10 Items or Less” was on — and I wanted to laugh (and I did). As I was falling asleep Will and I had an amazing telepathic connection all the way into the dream world and into our first dream visit. In the telepathic connection – we were in log cabin in the middle of a mountain range (feels like Smokey Mountains), and we were each finishing up on some writing. He was making changes to a script, and I was making changes in a book I was writing. He came up behind me and kissed me several times on the neck – and asked me if I was hungry:) This shifted into the dream visit we were making lasagna in a very big – and nice – country kitchen – in that cabin. He kept trying to distract me from making the sauce – a kiss here – a touch there — you can imagine where this lead to…
When I woke up this morning, Ted was the first person on my mind. I can still remember his laugh. That’s what I heard as I was coming out of my sleep – he was laughing. In this dream visit he and I were sitting on a rocky coast – I think in Wales – and we were talking. I mentioned something about pink handcuffs and leather — and he just started cracking up. I caressed his face and told him how much I missed that laugh. He said – you’re good for me and for a laugh. And he just kept on chuckling until I became fully awake. His green eyes looked so — what do I want to say? Snappy. Yes, they looked snappy. It has been a very long time since I saw his eyes looks so alive.
I am a big into manifestation and intention. When I do reading or write spells for people, I do everything I can for them not to be so focused on the outcome, but instead let it go. This has always been a chore for myself, so I know how hard it is to do. Plus, that attitude is everything – if an attitude reflects that something will not happen, then it won’t. But I came across an article which sums things up pretty well:
Adapted from How to Know God, by Deepak Chopra (Three Rivers Press, 2000).
Before you become master of your own life, you feel inadequate and powerless. Unforeseen things happen all the time. By contrast, after you assume authorship of your own life, outcomes are never in doubt. No matter what happens to you, each event has a place and a meaning. You also begin to master the art of manifestation. You just intend a thing and it happens. You co-create with the universe.
SIMPLE SOLUTION: When highly successful people are interviewed, many times they repeat the same formula: “I had a dream and I stuck with it, because I was certain that it would come true.” This attitude is a symptom—one might say the symptom—of co-creation.
The following qualities can be seen in people who have mastered the art of intention:
1. They are not attached to the past of how things should turn out.
2. They adapt quickly to errors and mistakes.
3. They have good antennae and are alert to tiny signals.
4. They have a good connection between mind and body.
5. They have no trouble embracing uncertainty and ambiguity.
6. They remain patient about the outcome to their desires, trusting the universe to bring results.
7. They make karmic connections and are able to see the meaning in chance events.
I am steadfast in my attitude that:
1. Will and I will be together in a relationship
2. I will sell DREAMERS to a TV network
3. That Will will intro me to Bill who will in turn intro me to Ted
4. That I am happy, loved and successful
And I leave it go at that. I’m no longer attached to the “how” “when” or the “why”. Although I am always curious how things are progressing.
Plus – this is a big one – I have finally adopted (and believe) the attitude of that I deserve it. I still worry from time to time that I’m not good enough to be with Will. But anytime that thought passes into my head – guess what? You got it – he’s there with that incredible love and energy to tell me otherwise.
I haven’t felt Merlin in quite sometime — but he’s right here on my left. He wants me to burn some frankincense in my office. Be right back…..
Okay – he had me add some cloves and myrrh to the frankcensense. Then open one of my windows in my office a crack. After I did what he requested, he faded from view.