Well hi there! Long time no talk. I hope everyone is having a happy holiday season. Thank you for all of the holiday messages that arrived in my inbox, FaceBook and here on the blog.
Humm….where should I even start with this update? Better grab a cup of coffee and get settled in — I have a lot to chat about.
College – ended up getting 3 A’s and 1 B+. Landed on the Dean’s List again (yay me)! Classes are out until Jan 10th. Another year of full time classes and I should have my BA by this time next year.
I’m also going to be enrolled in the Sex Coaching Instutite. I know – I know — seriously, how much can I cram into a day? No worries as my son is going back to his public school on Jan 4th. He had to realize that being with me all day long was not a good thing. I’m a lot more strict than the teachers. Now that he realizes that being with mom is not the best thing in the world, he won’t act up (on purpose mind you) in school so that I have to take him out and homeschool him. Fingers crossed that my plan has worked:)
Brodie has had some really rough days. I feel horrible for him – but he doesn’t want to give up yet – so I’m not putting him down for the time being. Gimli on the other hand is eating my house one piece at a time. The carpet, wooden floor, couches….SIGH. He’s just luckly I love animals.
My dreams have been so active and really messed up lately. This has been going on the last 6 months or so – but over the last 2 months it’s really intensified. In my dreams I’m working for a secret gov’t agency. We interagate people in their dreams. Now I’m good at shifting my dreams when I want or need another dream enviroment. But with this – I bounce right back to gov’t work. I’m very good at what I do for the agency and I’m told (in the dreams) that I’m not going to be going anywhere any time soon. I’m too valuable. SIGH. So I’ve bene waking up just as tired as when I fell asleep. When I try to shift the gov ‘t dreams – I keep landing in Atlantis. All I want to do is stay there – but even Atlantis can’t keep me in Atlantis.
The bathroom dreams are also back. Big rooms full of toliets with no walls – hundreads of people around going to the bathroom. But this time in these dreams – I find the one private bathroom there is — and everytime I enter I’m told that this is where I belong. Seperate – yet connect – to the world.
Now – in the waking world it’s also been very interesting concerning Atlantis. I could be in the middle of something (like driving) and all of a sudden Atlantis is there. I’m not “in” it – but I can reach out and grab it (so to speak). It happens all the time now – even when I’m in the middle of a conversation. I have to stop what I’m saying (I loose my train of thought completely) and restart. The last couple of weeks it’s been really intense.
The reason it’s so intense – I think – is that an old friend has come back into my life. This is a friend that I’d walk through fire for in a heart beat – but everytime we’ve been together (in the past) he has broken my heart in a million pieces. I have a wall so thick around me where it concerns him (and really anyone else who has hurt me) that it’s difficult for him to get through. BUT — he has an abundence of spiritual gifts that are just fabo – and he can still break through this fortress without even really trying. He’s come to me for help in understanding his gifts. Like me – he’s a logical thinker by nature – and he’s trying to logically figure this out (something Bill has been trying to do for years). There’s no logic to this — I’ve tried.
In order for me to really help him, I have to let my walls down completely. I know this – he knows this. Iris is being very forward about me doing this — that I have to. I know I have to — but I’m scared. He can get to places within me that no one else but Bill can. The difference my friend wants to be in those places where Bill has said no way.
So anyways my friend – Kevin – thinks he’s Vincent. He’s not – but what is so interesting about him saying Vincent out of all of the men I’m connected to is that at the ULE I got a couple of readings. All described Vincent as being in my energy – but it wasn’t Vincent. It was someone LIKE Vincent. Someone with the same protective energy as Vincent – someone who can love me in ways that no one else can. So is Kevin the Vincent that the readers mentioned? I try to figure it out, but I know I can’t figure it out. I have to go with the flow and see where I land.
Kevin says that I have an enormous power within me — like he does (I said the like he does – he didn’t say that) — that has to be tapped into. I’m only skating on the surface. By allowing myself to be fully immersed in my gifts – I can help more people (which is what I love to do).
I can feel the guys closing in ranks around me – not wanting to let Kevin close to me. Between my wall and the guys – it should be damn near impossible for Kevin to get through – yet he still does. Since I saw Kevin last night – I can’t stop the energy tremors. What he and I need to do (I feel) is spend some time alone without the outside pressures of life – if only for a day. This way we can get a handle on what’s going on.
I’ll try to keep you updated.
Starting at the start of the year, I will no longer be offering free follow up questions for the readings. I just cannot keep up with them all. I’ll talk about it more in today’s podcast.
Also in the last couple of weeks I started to watch (and got caught up with) Heroes. I was going to watch it when it 1st came on TV – but my guides told me no – I wasn’t ready. I wasn’t sure what I had to be “ready” for — but I think it has to do with the acceptance of who I am. The ability to focus in on my gifts and use them to make a difference in people’s lives. I know that so far I’ve only scratched the surface on what I can do — and it’ll take a big leap of faith to see what else I’m capable of.
But isn’t like that for most people? That we only scratch the surface of our possibilities – scared or fearful – to go outside of our comfort zone? To push our limits. When we push – when we tap into what we’re capable of — our world changes. It can’t help but change. For the most part people just do not like change. It doesn’t matter if it’s you that doesn’t like the change or the people around you don’t want you to change – if you change then you push them outside their comfort zone.
I’m going to be making some more changes in 2010 (I think). No more Gypsy Magic or Gypsy News blogs. I’ll leave them there but no updates. No more monthly Numerscope. OBE blog, this blog and the podcast stays.
Major changes to the OBE site on the horizon. I can’t tell you about it now – but will as soon as I can. I know you’ll like the changes:)
Mercury is in retro until Jan 15th.
I know there’s more to update you on — but I have dogs that need to go outside.
Hope all of you have a wonderful and safe New Years Eve. Here’s to a loving – prosperous 2010 for all of us!